It often feels I am one of those few unlucky ones who is so lonely, who has no friend, and family faraway. The next moment I narrate it to someone I meet and gather sympathy, and when he or she lends a helping hand of company, I suddenly feel getting bored, and feel I was happy when I was all alone.
Then one day again I feel being lonely due to circumstances, and I start feeling the syndrome again, however with time I realise that I like being alone and lonely and also crib about it. It is not others who ignore me but it is me who wants to be ignored and spend a pecularly silent life.
This is known as the "LONELY DRUG EFFECT". Why drug effect? Because if you use this time when you are alone to gather your thoughts and do something positive which helps you overall in life or gives you satisfaction is something different, that cribbing about a lack of companion and gathering pity from people you interact. Because then one day without your knowing, you become a boring character who people who would be most happy avoiding, and the DAY this happens you are "REALLY LONELY" , that is when the drug has done the damage.
So all those guys who think they have no company, they are in a pitiable condition, look around there are a lot of people like you, it is just your vision towards life which needs to change, go ahead and extend your hands to make friends rather than expecting others to do it, and also learn to know them before you start off with your narration of life!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
What I dream of- but dreams are always dreams!
"I" - Goes for all those who not the real self in life and playing characters always !
When I watch a movie, I like being the character, so I would always enjoy watching a hero who is not a real hunk, or a hearthrob, since although desperately I would like to be like him, it wouldnt be possible in this life. Therefore I would watch a movie where the hero has average looks or rather mild appearance.
When I would play, I would be so passionate that I would forget the boundaries of competition, and later come back thinking that I should have taken it as a game and not got so high on emotion during it, but try to think I am right and appreciate my sense of involvement. This in turn would make me look like being very silly infront of my friends.
I would love to crack a joke or two, look moody as I would feel it is stylish, I would act mature in front of my parents, I would try to act witty with my brother and show off being a cool dude. Every moment I would be playing a different character, think that it suits the time and people, but never realise who I am! Because when I would be alone, I would be yet dreaming about another character, so where and when is the time to discover me, myself!
How I would sometimes wish I was older, and the next moment I would like to get younger and innocent! What I want of life is difficult for me to find out. I would have to bank on the advice of my parents in deciding what I need to.
How I wish I would have a girlfriend, who would be so beautiful that the whole world would look in awe at her, and with envy towards me, but when that would be the case, I would end up being her security guard, and the most insecure person on earth. I would forget about my life completely either way, because when I have the "ONE" I would hardly talk to anyone, and when I would not have anyone, then I would crib not having the "ONE"!!!!!
WHen will I be me!
When I watch a movie, I like being the character, so I would always enjoy watching a hero who is not a real hunk, or a hearthrob, since although desperately I would like to be like him, it wouldnt be possible in this life. Therefore I would watch a movie where the hero has average looks or rather mild appearance.
When I would play, I would be so passionate that I would forget the boundaries of competition, and later come back thinking that I should have taken it as a game and not got so high on emotion during it, but try to think I am right and appreciate my sense of involvement. This in turn would make me look like being very silly infront of my friends.
I would love to crack a joke or two, look moody as I would feel it is stylish, I would act mature in front of my parents, I would try to act witty with my brother and show off being a cool dude. Every moment I would be playing a different character, think that it suits the time and people, but never realise who I am! Because when I would be alone, I would be yet dreaming about another character, so where and when is the time to discover me, myself!
How I would sometimes wish I was older, and the next moment I would like to get younger and innocent! What I want of life is difficult for me to find out. I would have to bank on the advice of my parents in deciding what I need to.
How I wish I would have a girlfriend, who would be so beautiful that the whole world would look in awe at her, and with envy towards me, but when that would be the case, I would end up being her security guard, and the most insecure person on earth. I would forget about my life completely either way, because when I have the "ONE" I would hardly talk to anyone, and when I would not have anyone, then I would crib not having the "ONE"!!!!!
WHen will I be me!
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